I know so many of my friends and family are waiting to see more photos of our new baby girl but I have been pre-occupied by daydreams! Honestly I am still overwhelmed by the fact we really are going to have another daughter and a little babe at that:))
My heart is full of joy, because adoption has changed my life for the better. I have learned that I am a better person, because I am my daughter's mother. I have learned that I can love unconditionally and only want the best for my daughter(s). I have concluded that this job of motherhood is harder than any job any person can take on, but it's more than it's weight in gold. And, I have realized that adoption transcends all boundries and you realize you are stronger than you ever thought as are the children. I am still learning and recently discovered how I've become a bit over protective this time around, of both girls. Perhaps it's because of the nature of her defect or just normal concern. Now I have two girls to worry about!!! It's a totally different scenario trying to prepare a tenacious 4 year old for a sibling. Kira has become very inquisitive about everything, often asking questions that take me completely off guard. Such as "Why was my sister hatched in China?" yes, she did say that and now asks "Is my sister okay"? I have explained in very simple terms the nature of her boo boo and thankfully there are many resources available to help me.
We received more photos a few weeks ago but most of them were blurred. As I rushed to open each jpeg I would carefully look at her face, tiny little fingers and think how perfect she is! Then I came upon this photo, actually pretty good quality and thought my goodness, she is so beautiful, with big almond eyes that seem to speak to your heart! I completely melt when I look at her face and the first time I printed it off, Kira grabbed it and hugged the photo. I of course, cried, then wiped my face so Kira didn't get upset. I feel like a complete emotional wreck sometimes because I know all too well the challenges and pain this baby is going through and will continue to go through till she is surgically corrected.
There is something beautiful and wonderful about adoption and right now I just can't seem to put it all into words. I now understand things I never would have, had I not been give the chance to parent a child. I also bask in the sweetness of innocence and laughter that takes me back to my own happy childhood memories.
She's so sweet I smile every time I look at her face!
