Thursday, August 27, 2009

A Mother's Love

I HAVE BEEN UNABLE TO BLOG OF LATE, MOSTLY BECAUSE I WAS SO FOCUSED ON MY PHOTOGRAPHY, NOW I THINK THAT WAS LOST TIME AS CURRENTLY I MUST DEAL WITH A FAMILY TRAGEDY.

USUALLY I AM GIFTED WITH WORDS OF COMFORT WHEN IT COMES TO OTHERS I CARE ABOUT, BUT THIS TIME I AM COMPLETELY LOST. LOST AND LONELY, ISOLATED AND SCARED, ANXIOUS AND ANGRY, BECAUSE THE WOMAN WHO BROUGHT ME INTO THIS WORLD, SUDDENLY LEFT, LEAVING ME WITH ALL THESE EMOTIONS I HAVE NO IDEA HOW TO DEAL WITH.

I FIND MYSELF RE-VISITING MY PAST, HOPING THAT WHEN I DREAM, I FIND MY MOTHER STANDING NEXT TO ME SMILING AND TELLING ME EVERYTHING IS GOING TO BE OKAY. THEN I AWAKE AND THIS SINKING FEELING HITS ME THAT I'LL NEVER SEE HER BEAUTIFUL SMILING FACE AGAIN.

SO NOW I THINK ABOUT MY MOTHER'S LEGACY TO ME, THE GIFT OF LOVE THAT TRANSCENDS DECADES, EVOLVING INTO A BOND THAT GROWS STRONGER THROUGH YEARS AND IS NEVER BROKEN. IT IS SECURITY, ADVICE AND STRENGTH TO MOVE FORWARD WHEN YOU THINK YOU CAN'T, IT IS JOY, CONTENTMENT AND WARMTH ON A BRISK FALL DAY. BUT MOST OF ALL, THIS LOVE, IS ABOUT A MOTHER AND HER DAUGHTER, WHO NOW GRACIOUSLY WILL CARRY ON A LEGACY OF HER LIFE STORIES.

WHILE I DEBATED WRITING ANYTHING ABOUT MY LOSS, I REALIZED THAT THIS BLOG IS ABOUT OUR LIVES AND CERTAINLY MY MOTHER WAS A VERY IMPORTANT FIGURE IN MY DAUGHTER'S LIFE. I JUST HOPE I CAN BE HALF THE MOTHER TO KIRA THAT MY DEAR MOTHER WAS TO ME.

MOM,
I'LL LOVE YOU FOREVER!

18 comments:

Jill said...

Oh Ivy, I am SO SOORY FOR YOUR LOSS. I too have lost a parent suddenly and I know the pain is unfathomable. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and that your mother is in Heaven looking upon you lovingly.
Hugs friend,
Jill

Rachel said...

Oh Ivy,
I am so sorry to hear about the loss of your mother, especially that it was sudden and unexpected. I don't really know what to say other than that I am thinking of you and I have missed seeing you around.

Rachel

Jboo said...

Oh Ivy -- I am so very sorry about the sudden loss of your Mother. I hope the love you shared and the memories of her love bring you comfort. Keeping you and your family in my thoughts and prayers.

Janet

The Gang's Momma said...

I, too, am so sorry for your loss. I cannot even imagine the crazy thoughts and feelings you and your family must be experiencing right now. Please know, I will be praying for you and all your family.

Fliss and Mike Adventures said...

So sorry about your loss... not much more I can say but a ton of hugs sent your way...

day by day said...

Oh, Ivy....I am just so sorry!!! Bless your heart!! Sorry for your loss, sorry for your pain, sorry for your sadness!!

Hang in there, Sweetie and know I will be praying for you!!

((hugs))
~Michelle

a Tonggu Momma said...

Ivy, you already ARE the momma that your momma raised you to be. It's inside you; it cannot be lost. Again, I am so sorry for your loss. Hugs, my friend.

Steffie B. said...

Hi Ivy,....I am so very sorry for your loss. I can't imagine your pain.

Hoping to see you soon at one of Debbie's classes!

Hugs,
Steffie

Jewels of My Heart said...

Sweet Ivy, I am just so sorry for your loss.... I truly can't imagine how hard it must be.
I will continue to pray for you to feel the peace that only Jesus can give.
Love,
Daleea

Ivy said...

I just wanted to thank all of you who have stopped by to provide such beautiful words of strength and comfort.

I am grateful for these special friendships I have made and during this time, every precious word and prayer is so special to me.

Thank you again my friends!

Treasure those near to your hearts every single day:))

jiangxigirls said...

Ivy,

I am just catching up on my blogs and I wanted to say how sorry I am to hear about your mother. I am sure she is very proud of you and that I am sure you will be the same kind of mother to Kira. Hugs to you.....

Becky

Yoli said...

Ivy, your mother will never leave you. She lives inside of you and her strength, courage and love will guide you for the rest of your life.

Hugs my sweet friend.

Mary Ann said...

I am soooo very sorry for your loss! I am sending you my love and my prayers!

bbmomof2boys said...

Losing your mom is hard. It makes you think about many things, life, dreams, the past and what the future holds. The lessons you learned from her are ones that you will teach your daughter. Years from now when you least expect it, your daughter will do something or say something that totally reminds you of your mom and you know what? You'll smile because then you'll know that she lives on through you and your daughter!

And yes, I know right now its hard to believe that this pain will ease. It won't ever go away, but it will ease. Promise.

Hugs,
Carla

Jennifer said...

Ivy~ I am so so sorry to hear about you losing your Mother.

Big hugs my friend.

Jen

Life with Kaishon said...

Oh my Ivy. Tears sprang into my eyes as I read this today. So sad. So truly sad. I will pray for you today. And thruout this week. I am so sorry for your loss.

Melanie said...

Dear Ivy,
I am so sorry for your loss...I understand how devastating this is for you and my thoughts and prayers are with you. HUGS to you from far away! I will be praying for you to find peace and comfort during this difficult time.

with Love,
Melanie

Felicia said...

I haven't blogged in so long and am just now reading your post. I am so sorry. You're in my thoughts and prayers. Sending you hugs!

 
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